Wednesday, June 30, 2010
Tuesday, June 29, 2010
Honestly, I’ve experienced a great deal of angst lately. Instead of allowing the things God has placed on my heart to draw me closer to Him, I have allowed it to manifest itself in anxiety and a lack of peace. I’ve questioned whether this passion is from God or something that I’ve just allowed to overtake my emotions.
However, I know that the God I serve is sovereign. Nothing happens by chance but everything is orchestrated by His hand. Even yesterday, as I was driving downtown to help a friend serve snacks at an inner-city vbs, a song came on the radio about all the children living without a mommy or daddy…all the hurting people that just need someone to reach out and extend a hand in love to them. I sat sobbing at the red light as I looked around me. In inner city
A friend told me once that she always thought I was strong because I never cried. Quite the opposite...I never cried because my heart was calloused, hardened, and numb. That’s how I know this must be God’s heart breaking inside of mine. Father, I ask that You enable me to rest and trust. Your Word promises that in quietness and trust is strength. Lord, be my strength and my vision. You love all those people more than my little finite mind can comprehend. You are working and moving on their behalf right now. So, Lord, until You show me what to do, I’m going to pray and pray and pray. I’m going to pray for all the people who are dying right now apart from your love and mercy, and for all the people who are dying right now and literally your love and mercy are all they have to cling to, all the children living without parents, all the children carrying the burden of being parents, all the children and women being brutalized and abused…all the poor and neglected and forgotten. I’m going to pray for myself. I pray that you continue to wreck my own heart. I pray that You would break the hearts of all of us who profess the name of Jesus. I pray You would break the hearts of the leaders in our churches. I pray that You would break our hearts to such an extent that we are motivated to do something. I pray for an outpouring of Your Spirit on your people. I pray that we would manifest Your love in such a way that the world stands back in wonder. Jesus, I pray that You alone be glorified as hearts are changed and hope is restored.
"The Lord is exalted over all the nations, His glory above the heavens. Who is like the Lord our God, the One who sits enthroned on high, who stoops down to look on the heavens and the earth? He raises the poor from the dust and lifts the needy from the ash heap."
Sunday, June 27, 2010
I wanted to introduce you to one of the couples from our small group and ask you to pray for them. Jason and I met Brent and Courtney back in January of '09 when we began leading a young married couples small group. They were actually the only couple in our group not yet married...a testament to their desire to seek God in their marriage and do things His way. We had the joy of watching them as they began their new life together ...they just recently celebrated their first anniversary! We have also recently experienced the joy of watching God move in their lives in a very tangible way. Brent is an accountant and Courtney just graduated from PT school. After feeling God's call, they have taken a 2 month hiatus from their lives here and landed in a completely different culture...South Africa. I received an email today from their contact in South Africa and wanted to share it with you. Keep in mind that they have not even been in South Africa for a week yet...